“Mommy?” he whispered.
I grabbed the counter so hard my knuckles went white. “I need the car keys. Now.”
Margaret’s face didn’t soften. Not even a little. “My guests will be here in twenty minutes.”
I thought she meant she would call an ambulance after they ate. That was how badly I still wanted to believe there was some tiny scrap of decency left in her.
But Jessica laughed, took my purse off the chair, and dangled the keys in front of me. “Maybe your baby can wait until dessert.”
I moved toward her, but another contraction folded me in half. By the time I straightened again, she was already outside.
A minute later, Ryan screamed.
I stumbled to the front door and saw my sister standing in the driveway with a red gas can in her hand. My SUV was already wet down the side. For one frozen second I could not understand what I was seeing. Then Jessica struck a lighter.
The flames caught so fast it looked like the car had been waiting to die.
Orange fire roared up the side of the vehicle, heat hitting my face from twenty feet away. My mother stood behind me on the porch and said, with total disgust, “Another useless human? What’s the point?”
I don’t know which hurt more, the words or the certainty in her voice.
I dropped to my knees in the gravel, one hand over my belly, the other reaching blindly for something to hold onto. Ryan ran to me, grabbed my fingers with both of his tiny hands, and pressed himself against my side.
“Mom,” he said, his voice shaking, “it’s okay. I’ll protect you.”
Then another contraction ripped through me, the car exploded louder, and the whole yard turned into chaos.
Part 2
People like to imagine that in moments of real danger, adults take charge.
That night, the only person who truly moved first was my three-year-old son.
While I was kneeling in the driveway trying not to black out, Ryan tore away from me and ran barefoot across the yard to our neighbor’s house. I was too far gone to stop him. I remember shouting his name once, weakly, and seeing his little body disappear through the dark toward the porch light next door.
Then everything blurred.
I remember the smell of burning rubber. I remember Margaret yelling that somebody needed to move the car before it damaged her flower beds, as if that mattered more than the fact that I was soaked, shaking, and nearly crowning in her driveway. I remember Jessica pacing in circles, suddenly panicked by the size of the flames she had started, but still too proud to say she had done it on purpose. And I remember dropping sideways onto the grass while my contractions came so close together they stopped feeling separate.
Mrs. Holloway from next door was the one who called 911. Her husband came running after Ryan reached their house crying and screaming that his mommy was having the baby and Aunt Jessica had burned the car. Later, everyone said Ryan had also grabbed Mrs. Holloway’s phone and tried to call Michael on video because he knew that was what grown-ups did when something bad happened.
By the time the ambulance arrived, my mother had switched from cold indifference to frantic performance.
“She’s always been emotional,” she told the paramedics. “This all happened so fast.”
I was strapped onto a stretcher, sweating, sobbing, and half delirious, but I still found enough breath to point at Jessica and say, “She burned the car. She did it. Don’t let them say this was an accident.”
One of the EMTs, a broad-shouldered woman named Carla, squeezed my wrist and said, “I heard you.”
At the hospital, labor went wrong before it went right. My blood pressure crashed. The baby’s heart rate dipped. They rushed me into an emergency delivery room while Carla carried Ryan to a waiting area and promised him his mommy was fighting hard. I remember hearing my own voice begging them to save my daughter before I lost consciousness under the pain and panic.
When I woke up, Michael was beside my bed.
He looked like hell. Unshaven, red-eyed, still in work boots, like he had driven through the night without once stopping to think whether his body could take it. He was holding our newborn daughter wrapped in a pink blanket, and he was crying so hard he couldn’t even speak at first.
“She’s okay,” he finally said. “Emily, she’s okay. You’re okay.”
I reached for my baby and for him at the same time.
Her name was Sophia.
Ryan came in a little later, clinging to Carla’s hand, and the first thing he said was, “I protected Mommy.”